I haven't the foggiest why (that's a lie...) I haven't been posting on here recently. But I was back on the computer and decided I might as well.
So much has been happening as of late, I don't even know where to begin. Much of it I can't say... At the risk of sounding rather self-important, have hope.
They say I am the one, they say I will end this all.

I'm still so young. I have yet to experience a normal childhood. Sometimes I wonder if I ever will.
I will not end this all, I am not the one. I have people beside me that I know I could not do this with. They are there to support me when I want to give up. When I just want to curl up in a ball, in a dark corner of some alley and cry as this world crumbles around me.
Sometimes I think that I wish I didn't care, but that's not true. Caring is hard, but it is necessary. I have seen so many that don't, and see where it has taken them.

When this war is over, I just want to disappear. I want to leave a quiet life away from the attention. Right now I am the boy who lived. I am also the boy who wants to live in peace.

But it is late, and I'm rambling because I can't sleep, once again.

I've been...odd lately. Haven't seemed myself, and I'm not sure why. What makes it even more odd is that I started feeling out of it, and it stopped just as suddenly. I woke up up a few days ago, and I felt back to normal.
Things have really been starting to wear down on me, there are a lot of things I have to figure out and take care of. Maybe I just need to talk to someone, get a few things out and off of my chest. Even though I've feeling more normal, there's a sense of urgency and nervousness. I don't know what's going to happen from this point. I don't know how things are going to play out. And it's killling me to just sit and wait.
We'll see.